Pregnancy Journal (Week 28)

Our little princess is getting bigger and bigger. I can now push on my growing belly and feel little body parts like a head, rear, elbows and knees. It makes this baby so much more real. Yesterday started my 3rd Trimester!! 12 weeks to go!

Today I started going through some of the little girl clothes we’ve been given. So fun!! So many cute dresses, pink, and flowers! Our laundry is going to look so much more colorful! Right now it’s all blue. Can’t wait to add some pink!

On Monday I go to the doctor for my glucose test. I’m crossing my fingers that I’ll pass. To have to be on a diet while pregnant would totally cramp my style!

I decided on a name. It’s actually the name that Darrin has wanted for the past several months, but when I told him I was ready to commit, he got all wishy washy on me. I’m hoping we can decide soon cause I’d really like to start calling her by her name!

This conference weekend has me reflecting on how this girl came to be. Last summer/fall I spent many hours contemplating and praying to know whether our family was complete or not. With everything that we’d been through, I wasn’t sure I could emotionally handle much more. I was leaning toward the idea that maybe my mission in life was not to be a mother to lots of children, but that maybe Heavenly Father had something else in mind for me. I had just about gotten used to the idea that my days of little kids were over and was almost excited for the next phase in life. Hours before the last conference in October I said a prayer in my heart and asked my Heavenly Father if that was the right choice or not. I prayed that something in General Conference would stick out to me and help me know what to do. In the afternoon session Neil L. Andersen’s whole talk was on bearing and having children in today’s world where other things are of a higher priority to many people. He quoted someone that said, “It [having children] is not something to do if you can squeeze the time in. It is what God gave you time for.” As soon as I heard that, I knew it was my answer.

I needed to try again.

That talk was given on Oct. 1^st. I found out I was pregnant on October 17^th. Any of you that know anything about having a baby, know that it didn’t take long. I was amazed and in awe at how fast it happened. It’s never happened that fast for us. It was another witness to me that we did the right thing. We, of course, didn’t know the outcome and were scared about how things would turn out. But we had peace knowing that we were doing what our Heavenly Father wanted.

Much to our delight things have gone well. Heavenly Father has blessed us. It’s not over, but regardless of what happens peace will be in my heart.

We have living prophets on the earth today, and Heavenly Father is very aware of each of us.

And this is something I know.